Well, I'm finally blogging. I've been thinking about doing it for quite some time now but being technologically challenged, I hesitated to jump in. Periodically, the idea would come floating back through my brain but again I'd think of all of the reasons why I shouldn't do it.
Recently, one of my friends started her own blog and I started thinking about it again. Then, two bloggers, Bino and Joel, encouraged me to jump in and give it a try. Joel's comments convinced me that maybe starting one is not as hard as it seems and it's not, so here I am. Thanks, Joel and Bino.
One of the things I struggled with was finding a meaningful name. I came up with a couple but neither felt right. Then I decided to talk to Father about it and see if He had any suggestions. Well, of course, He did and that's how "Forgetting the Former Things" came about.
A number of years ago, He turned my world upside down. It was a frustrating and scary time. Nothing I did seemed to work. My religion had failed me. Now, I understand that religion will never produce what it promises. However, during that time, I didn't know that so I did the only thing that I knew how to do and that was cry a lot. Now, understand, for me that was a major thing because I'm not a crier by nature but I was desperate.
Things around me were changing so fast and I felt as though the ground was moving under my feet and that I couldn't keep my balance. Apparently, that's what it took to loosen religion's hold over me. During that difficult time, Father led me to Isaiah 43:18-19.
"Forget the former things, do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland." (Isaiah 43:18-19)
I understood that He was doing a new thing in my life but I didn't know what it was and it was scary to let go of the former things. He would ask me if I could see the new thing and I would say, "No! All I see is sand." That confusion lasted about two and a half years and then, as I became freer and freer, I began to see something far away on the horizon.
Since then, it's been quite a journey as I've followed Jesus into unknown territory. At first, I kept looking back longing for the past but now, I'm looking ahead with excitement eagerly looking to experience what's new for today. Each day has new opportunities to come to know Jesus a little bit better and the former things no longer seem as captivating as the new things Jesus will reveal to me as we walk together.
Well, this is probably long enough for a first blog but I've enjoyed sharing a little about this wonderful journey that I've started and I'm sure I'll be sharing more in the coming days.