Saturday, October 25, 2008

Listening to my heart

I'm reading a really interesting book entitled "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho. It was recommended to me by an English teacher where I work as well as by a Spanish teacher. The description on the flyleaf said, "Lush, evocative, and deeply humane, the story of Santiago is an eternal testament to the transforming power of our dreams and the importance of listening to our hearts."

When I read that, I knew that I had to read this book. Written as an allegory, the story is about a young shepherd named Santiago who has a dream about finding a treasure. Following this dream, he leaves his home in Spain and travels to Egypt in pursuit of his dream. Along the way, he faces many hardships and obstacles but determines to continue his quest.

Although I don't normally care for allegories, this book has many spiritual nuggets that are encouraging me on my journey as a free believer. It's a book that I believe may require multiple readings.

In the introduction, the author said, "Whenever we do something that fills us with enthusiasm, we are following our legend. However, we don't all have the courage to confront our own dream." That spoke volumes to me about the importance of not letting my dreams die but to pursue them despite the obstacles.

He also said, “There comes a time when our personal calling is so deeply buried in our soul as to be invisible. But it’s still there.”

I can relate to this since dreams that I’ve held in my heart for many years are beginning to re-surface. Although I pushed them down because of fear thinking they were impossible to attain, they’re still there and they’re once again beginning to speak to me. I’m not sure how they will come to pass but I feel that now is the time I must move in order to see their fulfilment.

Another quote is “If someone isn’t what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own.”

This really goes along with my previous blog. There are those people who feel it’s their job to correct others. For many years as a people pleaser, I’ve been the person that others have wanted to fix. Now, I’ve come to believe that it’s okay to be who I am and I’m learning how to be me. That’s been a major transformation and it’s also been very freeing.

The last quote that I’m posting here is one of my favourites. “The boy felt jealous of the freedom of the wind, and saw that he could have the same freedom. There was nothing to hold him back except himself.”

Jesus said that we would be like the wind going wherever we pleased however, I’ve allowed religion and life to hold me back. Understanding that I can still have that freedom is exciting! However, freedom doesn't come automatically. I’ve had to break free from religion’s restraints and the bondages of the past in order to once again connect with those dreams that Father has placed in my heart.

Learning to follow my heart rather than a set of rules or others’ expectations of me has been an adventure and I’m really still in the learning stage. I’m finding that as I take each new step of faith trusting that Father is right there with me that my security in his love grows stronger each day.

6 comments:

Amy said...

Aida,
Thank you for sharing/giving a book review on The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho. I really appreciate you giving the excerpts out of it. It truly does sound like a treasure trove of wonderful Truths and Papa weaved throughout! I've added this book to my "Wish List" (which now, is ridiculously long...hee hee!)

"I can relate to this as dreams that I’ve held in my heart for many years are beginning to re-surface. Although I pushed them down because of fear thinking they were impossible to attain, they’re still there and they’re once again beginning to speak to me. I’m not sure how they will come to pass but I feel that now is the time I must move in order to see their fulfilment."

Very cool, Aida!

P.S. Please feel free to drop into my blogpage and leave your story on my "Birthday Blog" posted yesterday.

Blessings,
~Amy :)

Aida said...

Amy, I think you'd enjoy this book. It's got so many nuggets that it's hard to pick just a few.

Free Spirit said...

Really great words of encouragement here, Aida!

I find myself at a similar place of finding out who I really am under all the people-pleasing. But, frankly, I'm having to dig down pretty deep to get there.

Yes , I'm relating to those buried dreams, too. How I hope to God, I'll have the courage to still pursue them, and stop making excuses not to. The sand in the hour glass is slipping away.

Aida said...

I'm the same way, free spirit. I've let so much junk pile on me that it's not easy to find the real me but little by little I'm coming out and it's exciting to see what a really neat person I am. I didn't always think so.

I know what you mean about the sand slipping away but Father knew how long it would take us to get where we should be and I believe he's factored that all into our lives.

Free Spirit said...

"I know what you mean about the sand slipping away but Father knew how long it would take us to get where we should be and I believe he's factored that all into our lives."

Thank you, Aida. I needed to hear that.

Aida said...

Free spirit, Amy (lionhouse) made a similar comment regarding my Seeking God post. I told her the same thing but added a little more. After I did, I wished I had also added that here so I'm going to add it now.

Free spirit, we've all done things that we now wish we could change so don't beat yourself up over it. Our Daddy knew how long it would take us to get it and he factored it into our lives before we were created so actually, we're right on time.